I’ve been struggling lately. I have seemingly been blindsided by my current mental health struggles. I had been doing great for so long but it is like after the liver diagnosis the bottom fell out.
Every day is hard, every day is a struggle. I have to keep going and pushing forward because I have to work. It is very hard to function but I have been doing it. Sometimes I was to just burst into tears and put my head down. I’m still going though but sometimes I wonder if it is possible to keep going like this.
I feel bothered because I am frustrated by not feeling well physically. I feel bothered because I am 38 and have been questioning what I really have to look forward to in life. I feel sad. I don’t know what to do about it. If I try to talk about it in therapy I can always rationalize why I should not feel this way but I don’t really believe it.
But anyway, I am still trying.
